party night!!

not coz the Highlanders lost which is so sad.. Chelsea's title party so i'll def stay up even though i'm tired from Man Camp.. Camp for Man..

p good camp.. not as many crazy games as last yr coz Dave Pomeroy wasn't organizing it this yr.. but we got Dave Hawkes who is quite an adrenaline junky as well.. however we only managed one which was a bit disappointing.. but the messages from Peter Sara and Pastor Mike were p good.. all based on the book The Wild Heart (something like that?) which i want to get from Manna soon.. anyway, most of it is guy related.. Peter Sara did say something really awesome, i.e. whenever u start wanting things u don't want, start saying a little prayer.. and he also addressed issues on dating and trying to avoid self-inflicted pain..

speaking of self-inflicted pain, a year ago, i had such a close relationship with Jess Roberts which i just enjoyed so much..did Bio 111 together and sometimes Chem.. it was like we did a lot of stuff together and i just loved being with her.. it was so much fun.. of coz u know what happened after that.. had a chat abt dating and avoiding that self-inflicted pain with Matt.. and yeah we kinda managed to cover something i'm still feeling to this day.. it's like a dislocated shoulder.. it's always there.. it'll never be the same again.. and that's how i feel abt Jess.. curiously, on 23 April last yr when i first met Jess, something inside me said that this could change my life forever.. well hopefully not forever, i will get over Jess.. but as the saying goes, once bitten twice shy..

anyway, Pastor Mike did give a long talk abt guys being guys coz God said so.. used his son a lot for his examples.. the sticks and sticks.. hmm.. a bit long i guess coz he wanted to cover so much.. but we did do a lot of spiritual stuff which was what i kinda expected from Man Camp.. and Braveheart..

i just wonder.. if there was a war and New Zealand was involved in it, like in World War II with Britain and the USA in the Allies, how would i feel if i got drafted in? such a scary thought.. i mean not even my parents really have lived in a time when there was war and there were conscriptions, let alone me.. so it's hard to imagine... would i be frightened? after we watched that bit in Braveheart where Willy Wallace rallies his fellow Scots against those "dirty" English, Dan asks us whether we want to be Willy Wallace or the Scot who wanted to hide and protect his life, instead of fight for his country.. can't remember his name coz he appeared right at the end after Willy Wallace was chopped up and sent to Cornwall and Perth..

of coz in a spiritual context, we should all be Willy Wallaces and go in for the kill and suffer the consequences but knowing that we'd be doing something good.. but i was wondering what if we actually had to go and fight and defend New Zealand's freedom in war? such a hard question.. i think personally, i'd really chicken out.. having had no experience with the army and the way of life.. but then again.. i dunno.. then there are the moral complications, i.e. the killing of other soldiers..

well just pray that never happens.. war is a terrible thing.. but i reckon the next big war will be ecclesiastal.. and it will BE HUGE..