just can't believe how fast time has flown.. and now i'm confronted with not being able to see a special friend for quite a while.. or at least as frequently as i've had for the last 3 years.. it was p hard to see Matt and Sam go, and i think it's gonna be equally hard to see Jess go.. the last couple of weeks have made me think..
(BOMBSHELL COMING)
btw if ya see Jess any time soon after reading this, pls don't tell her anything abt this.. don't even text.. when i first met Jess 2 years ago, i kinda had a big crush on her.. she's a really cool person, for God and to hang out with.. and i loved hanging out with her in town and just talking abt stuff... when she left for the year, i missed her heaps.. i actually called her from Malaysia early in the morning once..
truth is i've always had some feelings for her even though if it wasn't quite like first year.. i've always liked being with her.. it's always been a nice feeling been with her and i rediscovered there while being in Cromwell.. doing the trek and working that vineyard that weekend, just made me realise that something's still up..
now she's going and who knows we might meet again.. perhaps we could be destined.. who knows? i've got to trust in God.. what i do know is that i love Jess immensely as a friend.. and that's what prob up for evaluation.. i said 2 years ago that i'm just gonna see how the relationship develops in 2 years and make my decision at the end of that.. dint think this day would come this soon..
my other problem is that there is another girl, but i haven't quite been able to know her as well.. but her age is more manageable, not that i'm saying Jess is too old for me, but comparatively, it'd be more appropriate..
i just don't want to look like i'm desperate for a girlfriend.. i just want to make the right decision.. and also perhaps end a very special relationship with a flourish..
anyway World Cup draw has ended and here it is:
GROUP A Germany Costa Rica Poland Ecuador
GROUP B England Paraguay Trinidad & Tobago Sweden
GROUP C Argentina Ivory Coast Serbia & Montenegro Holland
GROUP D Mexico Iran Angola Portugal
GROUP E Italy Ghana USA Czech Republic
GROUP F Brazil Croatia Australia Japan
GROUP G France Switzerland South Korea Togo
GROUP H Spain Ukraine Tunisia Saudi Arabia
p/s i have jumped off the rock near the Bannockburn Bridge 5 times now.. and let the record state that it was about 12 feet high from there to the water..
2 comments:
Hey bud! Wow, it's almost all over, eh? Sounds like you've been having an awesome time...
I'm not sure if it's such a good idea to post all those feelings in your "bombshell" there, boss. For starters, Jess does read blogs - and you're the only Cromwell blogger, she might be keen to read what you've said...
The issue isn't so much with what you've written, but that it's about a named person. I mean, it's a borderline call, obviously you've been careful about what to say... I dunno, I just feel that if Jess were to read it, it might make her uncomfortable, in which case it's better unsaid.
Or perhaps said in a private blog. Or e-mail. Or in code.
Anyway, I'll leave it up to you. Rock on!
i thought she doesn't really read blogs anymore..
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