last post of 2005

2005.. what an epic year.. can't believe it's nearly over.. and so quickly.. so much has happened in the last 12 months that it prob wouldn't be right for me to just recap everything now, coz i prob wouldn't be able to remember everything at this point..

lows? well i've never had to say goodbye to so many ppl during my time in Dunners.. so many ppl very close to my heart.. and i have to say it sucks.. it's not as if i won't see them again in the future.. but it just means that i won't be able to see them in the same capacity as i have been doing for the last 3 years... will get used to it in time but atm looking at the sunset at 9.30 at night, listening to soft, nostalgic music, just makes me sad thinking..

Sam's last weekend in Dunners was p difficult.. on Saturday, me, Mel and Sam had such a great time at the beach and just doing random stuff.. that was really nice.. Sunday, well i cried when we were praying up front for Sam i have to admit, as did a lot of ppl.. i guess at that point it was the first time i realised how much Sam meant to me in my life.. i could have hung out a bit more at Sam's place that Sunday avro but decided not to.. it was time to let go..

but we'll see each other again..

Matt and Louise left Dunners after i set off for Cromwell but still managed to do stuff on their last weekend here.. everything seemed to be go into place.. what turned out to be just a venture to the 150-flavour ice cream shop in Green Island suddenly became mum making dinner for them coz they had no food in their flat.. it was such a nice evening.. well dint cry on Sunday when we prayed for them.. but i know that the effects will be felt in the next couple of months, Matt having been my life group leader and all..

but we'll see each other again..

i have to admit the last goodbye was the hardest of all the three goodbyes i had to make.. a few days later, i actually weeped coz it was such a big personal loss.. and it was during Sunday worship.. i guess it was the Holy Spirit just filling up that gaping hole in my heart.. but yes i was so sad in the days after i said my goodbye.. seeing photos still does bring a moment of reflection..
in fact, i was saying goodbye to 3 ppl, Rachel, Jacqui and Jess coz they happened to be in Cromwell at the same time.. i guess what made it so hard to say goodbye coz prior to that we had such an awesome time..

but we'll see each other again..

other lows? worrying abt my future.. well actually not really eh.. in fact, for the first time i feel that i kinda know what i want to do in my future.. this avro, went to the Highgate Dairy where i reckoned this girl worked at and the owner knew who she was.. heard she wanted to get into Dental school, and she asked whether i was trying to get in..

teeth? drills? hahaha.. never in my lifetime will i be a dentist.. but i reckon this year i've discovered pharmacology could be my area.. now it's just hoping i get into Honours.. then again it may not be necessary.. ultimately i want to end up doing a pHd but now i know there's another route there and it may turn out to be the ideal route esp if i want to go elsewhere after next year..

what am i going to do then? i've led myself to thinking abt it but then decide not to pursue it further atm coz thinking abt it on the 28th December 2005 is not as good as thinking abt it like in May or June when my options are clear and i actually know where i am.. the things is most of my friends that i've known for the last 2 years will be gone.. and how am i going to tell my mum that i'm thinking abt moving out.. i'll be 20 next year but is it time to move on? am i leaving Dunners for the right reasons.. perhaps God will reveal it in time..

highs? as u'd expect lots of sports highlights.. and nice to cap off the year with a comprehensive win by the Blackcaps over a hapless Sri Lanka in beautiful Queenstown..

but have had a lot of personal highlights.. think for the first time, i feel glad to be home in Dunners, particularly coz now know more locals.. not just my mum's church but in Elim..

it was good fun organizing the Oscars.. got more into the Cutting Edge leadership.. can't wait to do life groups next year.. not sure abt 1 pm prayer.. plans will be more definite nearer the time..

and of coz adventures with friends in Central Otago.. that was good times.. from vineyards to Mount Rosa.. and the Cromwell bridge jump.. highlight of the year i reckon that one.. and for some of the boys..

not forgetting my visit of Sydney in the middle of the year.. i actually enjoyed it.. wouldn't mind living there now..

what abt 2006?

to be honest haven't given it much thought.. don't really want to.. well in January at least, i'm lining up a job in the first part.. then maybe a bit of a holiday just before uni starts.. maybe include Parachute there.. want to see Northland or Taranaki.. do something off the beaten track..

so here's to 2005..the best year of my life..