well the end has actually come.. much earlier than i expected..

because i have been so busy since last Saturday after news broke about my grandmother not being well back in Malaysia - resulting in a lot of changes to my flight itinerary - i haven't actually been able to post about it here.. last Saturday I found out that my grandmother got diagnosed with acute myeloid leukaemia and has only got weeks left. Thankfully she has been discharged from hospital and is now being taken care with the help of a full-time maid at home which is a bit of good news. You never know with these things. If it's God's time, it should be. Still it doesn't stop you from having these worries at night where you wonder is that phone gonna ring or are we going to get that text message which confirms your worst fears? Even then, now a week out from departing, you can't really do much other than just pray for the best.

Whatever happens, I am at peace and am ready to let go of the person i call "mama". She's had a great and eventful life and she's been a blessing while she's been alive. And I know she'll be heading to the best retirement home of them all : heaven. No worries about ACC. No need for Healthcare New Zealand or any government DHB. Just God. That's gotta be something p good no matter how good ACC, Healthcare NZ and the DHBs maybe..

Anyway, as i've said it now means I will leave Christchurch on Sept 9 for Singapore and then catch a flight at night to Kuala Lumpur when i arrive. I'll still leave Singapore for Europe on Sept 22 - i'll only change if let's say something untoward happens but other than that, i can't really do anything more as it'd be quite difficult to change.. I guess it really just means all the farewells that i want to do are pushed forwards.. the downside is i'll miss the Oscars and most of the Rugby World Cup on NZ TV - actually that might be a good thing coz won't have to put up with Hamish Mackay!! and yeah i was finishing off at work so it's just brought the end a bit earlier..